Fake

When you get what you want
When you get what you need
And yet there needs to be more

And things are just ok
And things can be great
But still there could be more

You stopped running
Withdrawn from the race
Your energy had given away

But it’s all up to you
And no one else
Pick yourself or choose to stay

Don’t wrestle with anguish
And deem yourself worthless
Because that’s not true

What your doing is ok
Don’t judge and devalue
There is no league table for you

Where’s that mountain to climb?
That journey to make?

Don’t beat yourself up boy
You dont need to feel like a fake

Where’s that new corp to create
The new gamble to take
Don’t shrink from the world
Don’t feel like a fake

Don’t shrink from the world
Don’t feel like a fake

You got to where you wanted to be
You got to claim your prize
But don’t let yourself tarnish that

Accept and don’t look for flaws
Don’t fall into your usual traps
Don’t seek out problems

Don’t wrestle with anguish
And deem yourself worthless
Because that’s not true

You are you and that’s your take
Enjoy boy, no need to feel a fake
You are you and that’s your take, enjoy boy

Starry Nights

Shattered dreams in the morning light
Aspirations crumble in the night
Near wishes a flickering flame
What you chase, but it’s not the same

Echoes linger, a haunting song
The path you tread is winding and long
Symphony of silent notes unfolds
A melody tells a tale it’s in unfolds

City lights a distant glow
Promises made an ending flow
Starry nights, illusions spun
The story’s just begun
City lights a distant glow
Promises made an ending flow
Starry nights illusions spun
The story’s just begun

Move yourself we’re all the same
Never easy in this lifelong game
But you can’t collapse admit defeat
Life a life to a broken beat

City lights a distant glow
Promises made an ending flow
Starry nights, illusions spun
The story’s just begun
City lights a distant glow
Promises made an ending flow
Starry nights illusions spun
The story’s just begun

So don’t think things can’t change
So don’t think it has to be this way
Your path has many turns and false starts
Learn, grow and be brave every day

City lights a distant glow
Promises made an ending flow
Starry nights, illusions spun
The story’s just begun
City lights a distant glow
Promises made an ending flow
Starry nights illusions spun
The story’s just begun

It’s a lie

I’m getting out
I’ll leave tonight
No more cross words another fight
But I’m not scared
No I’m not scared

Time moves on and the balance drops
What you doing when the love and stops
And I’m not scared
I’m not scared

And all the hopes that once so mattered
Are now left bruised and battered
It’s a lie
I don’t believe no more
And all the dreams that once so mattered
Just lie broken torn and shattered
It’s a lie
We don’t believe no more

I’ll take my things
I won’t be back
Forward my letters but please don’t write
(No yes I’m scared)
(Oh yes I’m scared)

When I leave tonight
I’m on my own
Lost my soulmate and I lost my home
And I’m so scared
Oh I’m so scared

And all the hopes that once so mattered
Are now left bruised and battered
It’s a lie
That I don’t believe anymore
And all the dreams that once so mattered
Just lie broken torn and shattered
It’s a lie
We don’t believe anymore

The Plan

Nobody handed me the plan
To show how to be the man
Trying hard to face it to my fears
Growing so much older than my years

When I look at what I have become
Product of all that’s been and gone
I can see it all so very clear
The road ahead looks broader near to here

Don’t tell me now I’m wrong
Don’t tell me now that I
Lost my way
Don’t tell me now that I’m wrong
Don’t tell me now that I
Lost my way

What I am standing and know
The reasons that this is what I show
Expectations placed upon me
Is this what I will ever be

Barriers I’ve tried to overcome
The whole is bigger than the sum
All of that that has gone before
Yet can’t be my excuses anymore

Don’t tell me now I’m wrong
Don’t tell me now that I
Lost my way
Don’t tell me now that I’m wrong
Don’t tell me now that I lost my way

Close my eyes

If I turn away
Doesn’t mean I don’t care
If I close my eyes
Doesn’t mean I’m not aware
A deficit of power
Absence of control

I am not blind
To what is happening
It twists my heart
Corrodes my soul

What we do to each
And one another
It burns my heart
Corrodes my soul
My soul

Too many times
These pictures are seen
Too many times
These stories are old
Nothing ever changes
Nothing ever learned

I’m not blind
To what is happening
It twists my heart
Corrodes my soul
What we do to each and one another
It burns my heart
Corrodes my soul
My soul

But I reach a point where I can take no more
I have to shield myself now
But I’m not turning my back to you

I am not blind to what is happening
It twists my heart corodes my soul
What we do to one another

Shout

Open up your mind and let me in
Let me wander around the empty space
Your blank page to cultivate
And sow the seeds of my case
I have no patience for new ones
I don’t have time for subtleties
Your view is different to my view
Not interested in proclivities

I’ll shout shout shout until I’m all that’s heard
And drown out all the others so that mine’s the only word
The problem is our argument appears in black and white
The problem is you fail to grasp that I am always right

I don’t want to hear counter arguments
Surround myself with those who agree
Reassure me, bathe my ego
Bubbles are nice, they amplify me

Don’t want to slide along a continuum
Life in polarization is what I seek
You stay your end, I’ll stay in mine
Better without us to speak

I’ll shout shout shout until I’m all that’s heard
And drown out all the others so that mine’s the only word
The problem is our argument appears in black and white
The problem is you fail to grasp that I am always right

Tell me what you think
Tell me what I think
Tell me, tell me
Tell me what you think
Tell me what I think
Tell me, tell me tell me what you think
Tell me what I think tell me, tell me
Tell me what you think tell me what I think
Tell me, tell me

Shout shout shout until I’m all that’s heard
And drown out all the others so that mine’s the only word
Our problem is our argument appears in black and white
Our problem is you fail to grasp that I am always right

Why does it need to be this way?

Boxing Clever

They lift me up
They take me so high
They’ll bring me down again
I had it all
It slipped away
Forever and then then

And I was never boxing clever
It happens all the time
It’s easier said than done my friend
So much easier
It’s easier said than done my friend
So much easier
Said than done

Who I am and where I stand
I no longer know
The only thing that’s clear to me
Is where I need to go

But I was never boxing clever
It happens all the time
It’s easier said than done my friend
To live and learn again
It’s easier said than done my friend
To live and learn again
Said than done

Its the same old story
Its the same old story
Just the same old story

But I was never boxing clever
It happens all the time
It’s easier said than done my friend
To live and learn again
It’s easier said than done my friend
To live and learn again
Said than done

Dirty Talk

Reveal me unpeel me
Like a deck of cards you deal me
I’ll take you then I’ll break you
And in my fingers snap you in half

Tell me hotshot why you want my services
All flash and prepped looking so sharp sitting there
Flash your cash boy because that’s why I’m here
In your Oxford shirt and fresh pocket square

Reveal me unpeel me
Like a deck of cards you deal me
I’ll take you then break you
And snap you in half

Think you are in control don’t you rich boy
In my heels along your back I will be walking
Maybe I won’t give you what you want boy
Or mission achieved through our dirty talking

Reveal me unpeel me
Like a deck of cards you deal me
I’ll take you then I’ll break you
And in my fingers snap you in half

What you mean to me

The world turns faster now, I’m running too fast and still
Trying to reach some point I know I never will
Time moves so quickly now, the months turn into years
What once was pure and good can terminate with fears

You don’t know
I can show
That I love you, how I love you, you will never know
You can’t see
This will be
Why I want you, how I want you, what you mean to me

Rules are getting so much harder, and stakes are high
Invest and commit, you know you can’t be shy
Early bird pays its hard, and so it must be done
Face up to what you’ve got, the rest are overcome

You don’t know
I can show
That I love you, how I love you, you will never know
You can’t see
This will be
Why I want you, how I want you, what you mean to me (you mean to me)

You don’t know
I can show
That I love you, how I love you, you will never know
You can’t see
This will be
Why I want you, how I want you, what you mean to me (you mean to me)

You, you don’t know
I can show
That I love you, how I love you, you will never know

Step Aside

The river flows beneath their feet
bringing debris down from its heart
As we have done from our start
But ours weighs us down and can’t escape
You could never be with me
I hoped you’d always be

The sky turned to grey
It was time to step away
One final embrace
For times long and gone

And so it’s time for us to go our ways
Remember what we had before
and why it could be no more
We shared a life in ways we thought achievable
TV , food , time for bed
Our mundanities fill my head

The sky turned to grey
It was time to step away
One final embrace
For times long and gone
The lives we shared
With others whom we paired
Know nothing of us here
What we were and what we had

Overcast on Blackfriars Bridge
Clouds gather us above
Never forget, all this love
Remember what we had and why that was
And so it’s time for us to leave
Its for the best we believe

The sky turned to grey
It was time to step away
One final embrace
For times long and gone
The lives we shared
With others whom we paired
Know nothing of us here
What we were and what we had
Goodbye my love
Why we live these lives
Goodbye my love
To need to live these lies

The sky turned to grey
It’ s time to step away
This final embrace
Our time was long but gone

Always watching, always waiting

Riding bikes cross fields and streams
Running through school fields
Endless circles of Mill Lane
Summer days out of the house

But this boy thinks too much
boys out of sight
Absorbed in his own world
Things don’t seem right
The lads just too quiet
What becomes of him
Always waiting always watching
Alone by himself

Needs to find his confidence
Needs to find his feet
Building dens in hedgerows
For friends he never meets

But this boy thinks too much
boys out of sight
Absorbed in his own world
Things don’t seem right
The lads just too quiet
What becomes of him
Always waiting always watching
Alone by himself

Until the ship goes down

I know that you could be the one to turn my world around to give me all I need I was lost now found
If I try to reason why

I’m sure that’s far as I can be that you were gift to me a life that I once thought could never be
If I try to reason why

I will be with you I’ll stay with you until the ship goes down
I will hold on to that that’s all I’ll do until the ship goes down

And as our time goes on my doubts and fears are gone they fade into the past maybe this is meant to last
I try to reason why

I will stay with you
I’ll be with you until the ship goes down but
I will hold on to it it’s all I’ll do
until the ship goes down until the ship goes down

Goes down ship goes down ship goes down